4 posts tagged “friends”

I am exhausted.

I am also frustrated in both my personal and professional life.

Personally, I am annoyed by all the assumptions that people make in life. I acted friendly towards a male friend of mine (the same way I always did), and all of a sudden this became misconstrued for romantic interest and he is now giving me the cold shoulder, I presume in an effort to deter me from my supposed affections. I don't have time for immaturity like this. Get over yourself. I'm just being friendly. I am not interested in romance at this point in my life.

Professionally, I had a rough night at the hospital. I was supposed to be shadowing on labour and delivery last night. I helped with one natural delivery at around 9:30pm. Afterwards I was not allowed into the next delivery because it was so crowded in the room and the birth became a little complicated. The nurse I was shadowing told me to go for break early because I was looking pretty pale and was feeling exhausted. I went to go lie down. She came in at 3am and told me to keep sleeping despite the fact that someone was giving birth. I got sent home early.

I came home and felt pissed off with myself and the whole situation for about an hour and a half. I am still not too happy about the way that went. I am completely turned off by labour and delivery and don't even want to think about working in that sector of the hospital. I don't understand why the nurses there were so unfriendly. I felt useless and ignored the entire time I was there. Fuck.

The older generation of nurses shouldn't complain about being short-staffed when they treat students and potential new workers like shit when they come on the ward. No, I have not nursed for 20+ years the way you have, so no, I don't know my way around your unit and no, I don't know what you normally do here. How am I supposed to learn when none of you are friendly or even make the slightest concession to notice me? Get outta here.

When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried?
Submitted by Maraschino.

During Reading Week (spring break) in February while I was on my ski/snowboard trip with the BFF. I don't even remember what we were laughing about. Probably something silly, per usual. We once spent two hours laughing at nothing except maybe the fact that we were laughing while eating chocolate. Two hours solid of just laughing because we couldn't help it. But then again, I'm usually at my happiest around her... she's gone to Austria on exchange. 3.5 months til I get to see her again! And it will be in Europe in Innsbruck. How thrilling is that! I'm super psyched for it. :)

What are you most grateful for in your life right now?
Submitted by Becca-Pink.

I'm grateful most of all for the people who are in my life at the moment. I don't think I've ever been as happy with my life as I am right now and it is because of the people who surround me.

• My family. Who I love. My mom, my dad, my nieces.
• My friends who are like family. The music kids, my BFFs, my nursing BFFs, my roommate, who are the most supportive of me and I can't forget that. I see it in every corner of my life.
  

On a side note. I just started seeing this guy 6 days ago... I want to nickname him the scientist. He is honestly terrific and I've yet to be sketched out by him despite seeing him 6 days in a row and spending the night partying with him. I slept with him this morning. It was the best sex I'd ever had in my life. Never mind that it had been many months since I'd last had sex. It just felt right to do it this morning. Most of the time I spend with him just feels right. I don't know what it is. I don't doubt that I'm supposed to spend time with him when I'm with him.

It's been a fast 6 days and maybe we'll slow it down over the next few months. I'm excited by him and I'm seeing him tomorrow when BFF comes to visit.

On another note I realize it's been quite a while since I've posted here. My fault. My life was chaos but I feel like I've re-energized and got myself back on track now. Hopefully you will be hearing more from me in the near future.

I'm glad to be going home tomorrow. I miss it and the slow pace of my life while I'm there visiting. I'm plenty excited for Thanksgiving with my friends and family.

I'm glad to be going out tonight to see my friends and have a few beers. I love them. I need a break from stressing out about school. I feel like that's all I ever do lately: stress out. I need some huggage. I hope that somebody hugs me tonight. Hahaha what a random thought.

I'm going crazy with all the tasks and responsibilities I have. Who said fourth year was going to be easy? It most certainly is the most challenging year I've faced here yet.

Good lord.