2 posts tagged “junior”
And yes, I am moving back in with my parents. I am one of those college kids.
Before and after:
I swiffered my room and it felt amazing. My room is wayyy cleaner than it was (it had accumulated four years of dust from me not really living here. Even in the summer when I was sort of living here... That doesn't really count.
In other news, SF is in Greece and has been emailing me every chance he has. :) It's nice to know he is thinking about me because I think about him a lot too. I hope this doesn't end up like the scientist.
Speaking of the scientist, most awkward things happened the other day. I needed to get my bike lock off my bike (minus the key) so I asked him to help. He had to ask for my number again which means he deleted it after I broke things off, how lame is that?! And then when he was over he asked me if he could still come on the interior/backcountry camping trip that BFF and myself go on every year with a few friends. I was like are you kidding? But I was caught off-guard and had been drinking heavily the night before, so I mumbled something that he took as a 'yes' which annoyed me to no end. I can't see him again or I will want to shoot myself in the face.
The reason I was drinking heavily the night before was because it was my last night out in my university town. I can't believe it's over. It was a fantastic final night though, I ran into junior and the sexual chemistry is still there. I'm not sure that is something that will leave. We danced a lot together and he kept stopping telling me that "he couldn't do this" because he was "seeing someone". I thought we were just dirty dancing but apparently that really had an effect on him. I was also heavily intoxicated at the time which probably didn't help, the dancing gets pretty slutty when I'm feeling that way. I felt bad for two seconds and moved on with my life. Junior and I will be friends in the future but nothing more.
I am still in a little bit of disbelief that this is it, that I am done with university forever. I know it will hit me once I have written my RN licensing exam, but that won't happen til early June. So I have about a month to let it sink in... we'll see how I deal. I think I'm done here for the night, I'm exhausted. This post has been the most rambly ever. I will do that random 8 facts thing... later. Tomorrow, most likely.
So just when I think my life is drama-free more of it happens. Last week was Halloween. I was Carmen Sandiego. It was a costume that made me feel sexy.
I had made plans to go out with all different groups of social circles so I was pretty happy when we all ended up in the same place, basically a strip in this city where it's all bars and clubs. We decided to go to a pretty upscale place (that is attached to another upscale place, so it's really 2 bars for 1 cover). I was pretty psyched about it because I love drinking while I'm in costume. Halloween has never been so fun as in university when I discovered this wonderful combination. Hah.
Anyway, long story short, I run into Junior - my sexy, rugby playing, rock-solid bodied brief hookup from orientation week. We had finally decided to be just friends over the couple of weeks prior to Halloween. Halloween ended up being the ultimate test of our ability to be just friends - and we failed pretty miserably. I'm not gonna lie, it was one of the hottest moments I've ever had in my life. The sexual chemistry I have with this boy overwhelms even me.
We're going to continue to try to keep it at just friendship; I'm happy with that but still also left feeling like I want more sexy moments from him. I don't think he's right for me though... he's just so young sometimes.
That night also resulted in a drunk message and phone call to the boy. He came over. We talked for a long time - 3 hours of just talking. Catching up, reminiscing, talking about how we feel about our ended relationship. I saw him again last night - we watched a movie together, a movie which we both feel was made for us. Even if we aren't dating anymore and have no intention of dating again. We've both moved on, but I'm confused as to where we stand. I got a lot of closure from him during the conversations we had last week and last night. I feel like I can be friends with him. I'm very confused as to how this is going to happen. How do you turn a failed relationship into a friendship? I've done it before, with others. I'm not quite sure how this will go. Certain things feel so comfortable and then others feel so strange.
I'm confused as to how I feel or want to react to all of these goings-on in my life. But in more exciting news, I'm going to New York City this weekend with my BFF. I'll be there Friday, Saturday and Sunday so there's plenty of time to rehash it with my BFF while shopping and partying til I drop. Hopefully I'll come back with some clarity? Hopefully.
