3 posts tagged “nursing”
I am exhausted.
I am also frustrated in both my personal and professional life.
Personally, I am annoyed by all the assumptions that people make in life. I acted friendly towards a male friend of mine (the same way I always did), and all of a sudden this became misconstrued for romantic interest and he is now giving me the cold shoulder, I presume in an effort to deter me from my supposed affections. I don't have time for immaturity like this. Get over yourself. I'm just being friendly. I am not interested in romance at this point in my life.
Professionally, I had a rough night at the hospital. I was supposed to be shadowing on labour and delivery last night. I helped with one natural delivery at around 9:30pm. Afterwards I was not allowed into the next delivery because it was so crowded in the room and the birth became a little complicated. The nurse I was shadowing told me to go for break early because I was looking pretty pale and was feeling exhausted. I went to go lie down. She came in at 3am and told me to keep sleeping despite the fact that someone was giving birth. I got sent home early.
I came home and felt pissed off with myself and the whole situation for about an hour and a half. I am still not too happy about the way that went. I am completely turned off by labour and delivery and don't even want to think about working in that sector of the hospital. I don't understand why the nurses there were so unfriendly. I felt useless and ignored the entire time I was there. Fuck.
The older generation of nurses shouldn't complain about being short-staffed when they treat students and potential new workers like shit when they come on the ward. No, I have not nursed for 20+ years the way you have, so no, I don't know my way around your unit and no, I don't know what you normally do here. How am I supposed to learn when none of you are friendly or even make the slightest concession to notice me? Get outta here.
Okay so I have 1 page left in my essay due... well, today at 8:30 am. I then have to edit the fuck out of it, because I have no idea what I'm talking about. If there's anything that's difficult to explain, it's fucking political theory. Yeah. I went there. Right now it's what...4:29 am? I just finished 1 of my 3 assignments due... well, today.
I'm going to be a complete zombie fuck-up today. And tomorrow (THURSDAY) I have a 12-hour clinical shift. Hurrah!!!! I cannot wait to sleep tomorrow (wait... I mean today).
And then Boy will come get me and we'll go grocery shopping, and I can finally have cereal! GLORIOUS CEREAL!!! And oh, let's not forget... I can also have TOAST!!! GLORIOUS TOAST!!!! I missed having bread in my pantry all week. I kind of miss my mom right now. She's such a dear.
Boy invited me over to write my essays/assignments here because he knows I will get TOO distracted at home... and he went to bed at 2am (as expected... it's as late as he'll stay up nowadays). And he's been Sleeping Adorably ever since then. He is too cute to look at. Sigh. I'm in love with him all over again. Not that it takes much for that to happen.
RAMBLING! DELIRIOUS!!! 4 hours of sleep in 2 days... God I am insane.
So I'm in my third year of a Bachelor's Degree of Science in Nursing. This means I have been taking courses about human physiology and its related illnesses since first year. Anatomy and Physiology I and II, Pharmacology, Microbiology, and now Pathophysiology.
It's turning me into a hypochondriac. I swear. I self-diagnose myself with diseases all the time. Remember that time I had heartburn? Well, now I might have coronary artery disease. Well, maybe I will. Because a lot of those risk factors are in my family. Sometimes I think I have symptoms.
And now when somebody approaches me saying they're confused about something, I automatically think they suffer from some kind of mental illness. Not that I could possibly have been unclear about anything, no. It's gotta be that they have an illness that needs to be diagnosed, right away!
I'm going crazy studying for this midterm. I've decided that I rather like this whole vox thing now.
